Just had sometime to spare,so here I am,updating at this site.Been a mighty long time since I last did anyways.Cause I found that I feel more secure with the LJ site.I can lock my posts,and only friends who added me in LJ can read my posts. :D ani't that better than letting some crazy mortals gain access to your private thoughts?And leaving behind their worthless two cents worth?Been re-reading my prev posts,and realize that some are so EMO.Lawls.But that is me.

Okays,I am back here again.Methinks I'll prolly be sticking to blogger for quite sometime, till I remember my Lj's password,and Lj is so darn troublesome. But blogger is screwed,in the sense that I can't see my links and past entries. =.=

Jaslyn a.k.a ah ma has sent me a comment on friendster asking where my blog flew. Hmmmm..I'm in a kinda dilemma dilema?. Should I tell her?Cause I really don't wish to,till I find the preparator perpetrator that betrayed me.


Amandaz is gonna grow HORIZONTAL!~
Imagine,having peanut soup at this hour.
Amandaz thinks momma is trying to sabo her.Totally.



And so today,Amandaz got a rude awakening.Lazynut sms-ed her at about six plus in the morning to say that he's off to the airport,wish ya all the best.Yes,Amandaz was simply THE BEST larhs.Not self-praise,really.The best part is that Amandaz didn't realize who she was replying to when she said 'yup yup,have a good trip!' LOL. Double meaning. So only when she totally woke up at eight did she know that she was sms-ing Lazynut.WOWEES~


The brats came over this afternoon and we went for a swim.Then halfway through,Cass decided to call Jach,and Leo went off to play with two char bors. =.= SO FINE! Amandaz kena ps-ed larhs! Always happens anyways. So what did Amandaz do? She dried herself and changed into proper attire,then went to the gym.Lawls.The treadmill was nice.(= So when she came out,what did she find?Wells,She found Cassie's ears positively glued to the phone for the last hour or so, and Leo playing monkey with the girls in the BABY POOL.WOW.Talk about exciting eh? :D


After dinner,the adults decided to go for some distant relative's funeral,and since the other aunt flew overseas today,guess who was the oldest at home? :D I got complete control of da house! :D So I decided to abuse my authority and make all of us watch HIDE AND SEEK.Wells,it was supposed to be scary,but it turned out to be BORING.Total waste of time.



Lawls,gtg now,so TOODLES~ :D

HEEROOOOS PEepS (=

ChanGEd my Blog!

cause I can't see past entries from heRE =(


New URL:

retardedservice.livejournal.com


will be posting there,soon. :D

Man,I got so caught up in the stupid flame war thing that I have forgotten to write about things that made me happy.Lawls.And that's just the way it is,eh? We're often so caught up in things that went wrong, that we forget to remember the fun times in between.

SO!What are the happy events?Lawls.BOwling and Ice skating,the antics were fun.& Smokey and Goosey had their fair share of pranks. :D But it backfired a lil just a lil. Tenhnut's biz. =.= Oh wells, but as the old saying goes,The fun's just begun. LOL. Scheming,evil,nutty twins~ :D

I have realized,you're far too good,and far too rich.This won't work. LOL.You probably don't even know about my existence.So,stop it before it begins, Amandaz will give up.GAMBATE,me.Lawls. Good luck,you.You are smart enough.Financial problems can be overcomed.For me,I am not smart,neither am I rich. Lol.One can't have the best in both worlds,I can't have the best,in any world.Lawls.So don't try to console me. =S


The last thing I remember from the war,'The most pathetic thing of all in your life, the friends that you see as friends and trust a lot are those who are providing me information'. Uh huh.So from this,I have learnt,that sometimes it's really stupid to be so trusting.LOL.For that,I hope that I will not be in the st marg's team for SERVE.but then,I'll be under some pastor I don't even know. Not that I mind going back to school. That can be dealt with separately,and rather easily. It's just that the thought of working with a St marg's girl has me shuddering to no ends. once bitten,twice shy. I was bitten many times.


Oh wells,something popped into my little grey matter,let me share it before it seeps out of my porous head. :D
Ultimately,the only person that can hurt me,is myself.
So I guess I just gotta learn to forget the incidents,and maybe even forgive them. But really,the most difficult task is to learn to be able to forgive oneself.It's not so simple,that'd be denial.To be on the road of forgiveness,one first have to realize one's wrong doing.yes,and other's. And after the process of forgiving,one should be able to look back upon the unhappy/undesirable events with a neutrel stand.I hope I will be able to,someday,somehow.I guess it'll be a route of self-discovery,one where no living entity will be able to show the way.Enlighten,yes.Oh wells.




& so right now,I guess it'd be the best not to trust others so easily..

I am worried about my father's illness.It seems as if it is getting worse.It's like, he got a cut on his leg today,and he didn't even know,till I asked him about it.And he doesn't even know how he got the cut.And he said he's lethagic,and heart's beating damn fast.

I shouldn't be saying this,but all these just came at such a shyt timing.And I don't know what's coming over me,but I just got this sense that's telling me his condition is getting worse.And now because of that,I am constantly re-examning how I had treated him in the past.And felt guilty,cause I am feeling like I should have talked back a little lesser.Plus,nowadays I am losing my temper over the littlest things, regretfully,most of the most hurtful words are being directed at the wrong people.

& somehow,I've got the feeling that I'd rather be missing a limb than missing him.

Life just doesn't go the way we want it to;live,and let live.

PLease.Camwhores need a look.So go take a look in the mirror.If you think you're Oh so good go fuck yourself to hell.So what if the only vulgarities I know are Fuck,bitch and whore?OH!I get it,my vocabulary isn't as extensive as yours,and boy,am I sorry for that.

I won't insult your parents either,because they are too good for you.Oh,so I am filled with nothing but crap huh? Gou yan kan ren di. Your cheena is so damn good,I bet you know what that means.So what if I smoke,and still say my body is a temple of GOD?At least I am aware of that fact.And I know my own shortcomings.And even if I am a loser,so what?You think you are so smart,yet do not know that there exists TWO types of spelling,British and American. Sulfur is the American way of spelling sulphur. How very smart,WOWS.

And who said anything about me not having any real friends?Yes,I may be stupid,but not to the extent that I'll put all my eggs in one basket.School is not the only place for making friends.Oh.LOL.Did I just say friends?HAH.


You have no right whatsoever to talk about me and my ex,because you and your so called boyfriend ain't all that good anyway.Remove the plank in your eyes before you talk about the speck in others.Anyway,so what if Alex and I broke up?At least we are still friends.

However much space I dedicate to my post entries is entirely up to me,and you aren't entitled to comment on it.Oh but some people can't comprehend anyway.They think they are the best.Smartest.Whatever.So what if I am inferior to you in terms of academia? Ultimately,it's the character that matters.If you think you are superior in both terms,pleasedo tell me when to stop laughing.




>whatever: Notice that I mention her when talking about Bisexuals and lesbian.What's there to be stoked about,unless you are her?And I pity you,because you dare to spam other's Blog,but dare not leave your name.Lawls.Yet you want others to take you seriously.How do you expect people to respect you,if you dare not take responsibility for what you said?Starting a flame war is so immature,even if you have so much free time.









Friends outside school are the best,after all.
Thanks,all you nutty people,and Alex.And Debbie.

This post is going to go down in my blog history as one of the most vulgaR.So saying that,I'll be using LOADS of profanities.Those who know you cannot tolerate such language,skip this.

To the whore that should know her standing;

I ain't a fucking poseur.
I wear black cause I'm loving it.
You think you are the only one entitled to wearing black? Well sorry to spoil your fuckin load of self-esteem,but you are a NOBODY.
And my poems are my creations.I am not trying to please anybody but myself, so get off my fucking case.I create something that suits my mood,and if it ain't happy so be it.Life isn't always a shitload of roses.You get yourself a fucking sense of direction,before talking about others as if you are superior.

If you think you can get into psychology,GET A FUCKING BRAIN TRANSPLANT.You may get in due to the low aggregate required,but you are gonna flunk out anyway.When we reconciled,I made the same mistakes I made back then;I trusted and looked up to you. Though it is said that people learn from their mistakes,I sure wished I had.And by the way,if the front of your hair is set to suit the image of bangs,you should seriously take a hike,till it grows back normally.


FUCK YOU BITCH. Yet that is still an understatement.


I got a clip on lip ring not to look cool,or as you suggest,to imitate the high and mighty you. I got it for the sake of having fun,and because unlike you,I have no wish to uglify myself or let my lip become prone to infections. My body is the temple of GOD,and I have no wish to make it impure.


For the matter of joining gangs and smoking,you are not entitled to comment on it anyway.Who the fuck do you think you are,you fucking lesbian. BISEXUAL indeed.Why don't you go burn in the depths of sulfur?


If you think everybody sets out to copy your fucking style,well revelations to you,missy,get your fucking self denial claims straight.You daughter of a bitch,just because you act morbid and pathetic,no one's gonna pity you much longer.Who the fuck gives a damn when you slit yourself?I was sorry I ever felt sorry for you,looking back now,I was a fool.Never should have trusted you,apologized for the things I never knew I did wrong.I slash because I want to,not because I had a fuck of a mentor that I looked up to.


HELL IS A PUNISHMENT TOO CHEAP FOR YOUR TYPE.



& I'll shoot myself the day I get into the same course as you do,cause you are a fucking self-obessessed pain in the ass.



To whoever that supplied you the news,I hope you burn together with this hell of a bitch for the rest of eternity.




I know I'll have to answer for what I have written,someday.But I am confident I'll be able to give an answer like no others.

Amandaz;[26101991]
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